When a Hoarder TRIES the KonMari Method

I decided to get on the bandwagon and try the KonMari Method to clean out my hoard.  I watched enough Tidying Up episodes in Netflix to get the gist of it.  First I have to pull every single item of clothing I own and put it in one spot.  Little did I realize, I have 8 bins worth of clothing plus a closet and drawers that I can FIND.  As I piled my mountain of clothes onto the couch and floor,  I quickly regretted my decision.  This triggered my anxiety to a five alarm panic attack status.  I want to cry, I want to hide, I’m overwhelmed…what do I do with all of this??!! I started picking up each article of clothing asking, does it start joy?  Well you know it does, I’m a hoarder!  I have attached a memory, a story, a purpose to these clothes! This make me happy and I feel safe surrounded by my fortress of crap!  That’s why I still hold onto it all!  The decision making process was torturous as I felt I HAD to get rid of some of my clothes.  I captured the event in this Part 1 video: