I decided to get on the bandwagon and try the KonMari Method to clean out my hoard. I watched enough Tidying Up episodes in Netflix to get the gist of it. First I have to pull every single item of clothing I own and put it in one spot. Little did I realize, I have 8 bins worth of clothing plus a closet and drawers that I can FIND. As I piled my mountain of clothes onto the couch and floor, I quickly regretted my decision. This triggered my anxiety to a five alarm panic attack status. I want to cry, I want to hide, I’m overwhelmed…what do I do with all of this??!! I started picking up each article of clothing asking, does it start joy? Well you know it does, I’m a hoarder! I have attached a memory, a story, a purpose to these clothes! This make me happy and I feel safe surrounded by my fortress of crap! That’s why I still hold onto it all! The decision making process was torturous as I felt I HAD to get rid of some of my clothes. I captured the event in this Part 1 video:
Cleaning out this hoarded toy room is going to be a 10 part series! If you read yesterday’s blog post, you’ll quickly understand why this room is so hoarded! Since Santa brings 25 presents per child and the rest of the family follows suit in giving an additional 10 gifts per child, the value of toys make sense now. This year we are scaling back on gifts. If I want this toy room to finally be functioning, I cannot have another 50+ toys cluttering it back up. Plus, I now realize how wasteful this is. My kids don’t even play with all the toys. It could be from a combination of they can’t get in the room and there is just too much it’s overwhelming. I think all of the hours everyone had to work to afford those presents to just sit in a room, waiting for me to sell them at 80% off or donate to someone else. This is a new Christmas! A Christmas of enjoying experiences instead of buying more stuff. Below is a video of the progress we are making in the toy room!
I just put a dent into this room where you can start to walk into the room. My youngest son was able to go into the room and play with some of the toys! Those toys have not been touched in years! That keeps me inspired to keep cleaning even though this will be a 10 part series! The goal is by Christmas this will be a completely cleaned out room!
I am so excited because now I have a SECOND completely clean room in my house! It feels amazing seeing how clean my bathrooms are! My “Clutter Snowball” method seems to be working! I started with the smallest room in my house for the quick win! I then used that momentum go onto the second smallest room in the house. Just like the “Debt Snowball” method but with crap! I also used the KonMari Method while cleaning and sorting. I feel so amazing because I can feel myself changing: things I would have kept, I could toss out with no problem. I believe a lot of that has to do with how driven I am. I want to heal from my hoarding habits so desperately. I have been meditating and writing self affirmations about my healing. I am actually excited to start the next room!
It’s time to move to the next smallest room in my house: the full bathroom. Luckily, this room is not really hoarded. It’s one of the few rooms I can clean and keep somewhat organized. There are a few corners and areas that need to be sorted and a good scrubbing is in order too. I’m going to be using the KonMari Method to organize all the shampoos, conditioners, toiletries, etc. I did very good at throwing away some expired stuff and old things that had sentimental value. I actually feel great because I was able to toss a lot of stuff out!!!
This is so exciting to announce that I finally have a completely cleaned and organized room in my house! And I did it all by myself! No therapists, no help from someone else…all from my desire to heal from my hoarding! I started with the smallest room in the house for the quick win! I called it my “Clutter Snowball!” (Just like the Debt Snowball but for crap!) I bravely went through all the emotions of anxiety, fear, the need to pull it out of the trash…and I can out victoriously! I love seeing how my bathroom looks now! I’m excited to start on the next smallest room in the house. The joy in the end is worth the anxiety in the beginning!