I decided to get on the bandwagon and try the KonMari Method to clean out my hoard. I watched enough Tidying Up episodes in Netflix to get the gist of it. First I have to pull every single item of clothing I own and put it in one spot. Little did I realize, I have 8 bins worth of clothing plus a closet and drawers that I can FIND. As I piled my mountain of clothes onto the couch and floor, I quickly regretted my decision. This triggered my anxiety to a five alarm panic attack status. I want to cry, I want to hide, I’m overwhelmed…what do I do with all of this??!! I started picking up each article of clothing asking, does it start joy? Well you know it does, I’m a hoarder! I have attached a memory, a story, a purpose to these clothes! This make me happy and I feel safe surrounded by my fortress of crap! That’s why I still hold onto it all! The decision making process was torturous as I felt I HAD to get rid of some of my clothes. I captured the event in this Part 1 video:
When I was doing week 2 of the Minimalism Game Challenge, I started to feel the pressure of letting go of my stuff. I have already let go of so much stuff the past few months and now I’m forcing myself to keep up with letting go multiple things every single day! During these higher days of getting rid of 13 things on day 13 are becoming stressful. I can feel my anxiety creeping up as I search the house for treasures to discard. I’m not sure how I am going to make it through week 3 & 4 but I’m going to keep moving forward! Below is a video of week 2 of the Minimalism Game Challenge!
Finally!!! After months of clean out of this toy room, it is finally clean!!! This has been an emotional roller coaster with feelings of anxiety and frustration to joy and happiness. There were days I thought I would never get it done. But I kept going because baby steps still move you forward. Another huge part of keeping me motivated was documenting it all on my YouTube Channel. When you have people watching you and cheering you on, it keeps you cleaning out your hoard. I realized that short term goals and high accountability gets the best results for any personal achievement. I am learning to heal from my hoarding mindset. I have attached the video below so you can see my Before & After photos of my hoarded toy room.
Cleaning out this hoarded toy room is going to be a 10 part series! If you read yesterday’s blog post, you’ll quickly understand why this room is so hoarded! Since Santa brings 25 presents per child and the rest of the family follows suit in giving an additional 10 gifts per child, the value of toys make sense now. This year we are scaling back on gifts. If I want this toy room to finally be functioning, I cannot have another 50+ toys cluttering it back up. Plus, I now realize how wasteful this is. My kids don’t even play with all the toys. It could be from a combination of they can’t get in the room and there is just too much it’s overwhelming. I think all of the hours everyone had to work to afford those presents to just sit in a room, waiting for me to sell them at 80% off or donate to someone else. This is a new Christmas! A Christmas of enjoying experiences instead of buying more stuff. Below is a video of the progress we are making in the toy room!
I just put a dent into this room where you can start to walk into the room. My youngest son was able to go into the room and play with some of the toys! Those toys have not been touched in years! That keeps me inspired to keep cleaning even though this will be a 10 part series! The goal is by Christmas this will be a completely cleaned out room!