Hoarders are NOT greedy people

In this confession I will be explaining the misconception that hoarders are greedy people.  When you see the mass collection of possessions in our home, I can understand why people would assume that.  But it is not greed that triggers that.  I believe greed is someone who needs to attain money, power,  material possessions and will hurt other people in trying to obtains those things.  They can either cheat, hurt or sabotage other people to reach whatever they are after.  Everyone in their way are dispensable.

Hoarding however is triggered by anxiety or depression.  In my case it is anxiety.  The mass collection of possessions was accumulated over years and even decades.  I feel the need to save everything.  So when new things came into my home,  old ones were not going out.  Getting rid of certain things triggers my anxiety into panic attack mode and that’s why I will hold onto it.  Below is the video where I explain a little more in depth:

 

When a Hoarder TRIES the KonMari Method

I decided to get on the bandwagon and try the KonMari Method to clean out my hoard.  I watched enough Tidying Up episodes in Netflix to get the gist of it.  First I have to pull every single item of clothing I own and put it in one spot.  Little did I realize, I have 8 bins worth of clothing plus a closet and drawers that I can FIND.  As I piled my mountain of clothes onto the couch and floor,  I quickly regretted my decision.  This triggered my anxiety to a five alarm panic attack status.  I want to cry, I want to hide, I’m overwhelmed…what do I do with all of this??!! I started picking up each article of clothing asking, does it start joy?  Well you know it does, I’m a hoarder!  I have attached a memory, a story, a purpose to these clothes! This make me happy and I feel safe surrounded by my fortress of crap!  That’s why I still hold onto it all!  The decision making process was torturous as I felt I HAD to get rid of some of my clothes.  I captured the event in this Part 1 video: