A few days ago I had my first emotional breakdown after decluttering my hoarded house. I felt anxious, depressed and felt alone in the world. I cried hysterically and called a dear friend from church. She helped comfort me and gave me great advice. She’s worked with a lot of addicts. I am her only hoarder. But the patterns and habits are very similar to addictions. She explained that this was a good thing because I need to learn a new coping mechanism in place of hoarding. I explain my heart in this video because I want other hoarders to know that they are not alone. I also want non-hoarders to understand how we struggle. Together we can find healing in this mental struggle.
I hope that when you have had breakdowns like this and feel anxious/sad that you can think about how much you have accomplished in a very short time. It would almost be strange if you didn’t have a backlash. You have done a great amount of work, both physical and emotional. I stumbled upon your Youtube channel this year and I have watched every single video, it feels like cheering a friend who is running a Marathon. I hope you are proud over yourself, you are doing great!
I know you are a creative and crafty person. Do you have any thoughts about your craft supplies? Is it possible to make a whole craft corner somewhere in the house (basement?) with a table and shelves? Maybe that could be something to look forward to in the future (it could be like a goal/treatment, cheaper than buying new stuff or going on vacation)? 🙂 Lots of love!
I agree with Rebecka. Take it one day and item at a time. You’ve got this.