This Christmas I decided to scale back on gift giving and over spending on Holiday experiences. After finishing all the wrapping, I saw the amount of gifts I had and it triggered a panic attack. I am not kidding here, I know it sounds absurd but not giving a lot of gifts this year triggered an anxiety shock inside of me. I quickly went on Amazon to buy a few more gifts to ease my alarming nerves. I know that last sentence sounds obnoxious but it’s true. My love language for showing love is gift giving. So I show my love by giving the people I love multiple gifts. The more gifts I buy, the more love I am showing you. So when I only saw a few wrapped gifts, I panicked because I didn’t want to disappoint any of my loved ones. I didn’t want them to think I stopped caring about them. This is how my mind works as a hoarder. I attach an extreme value to ordinary items. In this video I share more in depth on my mini Christmas melt down:
I can totally understand where you’re coming from. I don’t think the Holidays with all your usual stressors is the best time to implement new behaviors.
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