“Be open to everything and attached to nothing.” I heard this quote from a Wayne Dyer video and it really resonated with my heart. I am keeping an open mind to new ideas and philosophies. I have been meditating on a daily basis both morning and night. I find that the more I clear my head, the more I am encouraged to beat my hoarding habits. I actually desire a more organized home with clean open spaces. My hoarded items used to make me feel safe and protected but now they are being more of a nuisance. I am tired of making excuses of why people cannot come over to my house. I am tried of feeling anxious if someone surprises me at the door. I’m tired of feeling ashamed of myself for letting it get so bad. No more. I am opened to change my heart. I am open to discover new ways to heal myself of hoarding. If God, Jesus, Buddha, the Universe, Wayne Dyer, Oprah: if any of their philosophy heals my soul so I can detach myself of these items, I will be opened to their words. I will remain open to hear the message and see if it resonates with me. I will be opened to share my story with the world, even though I am afraid to let my deepest secret out! For if I can help myself and one other person to become free of their hoarding, then my life’s purpose will be fulfilled.
While in my meditative state, I am beginning to realize who I truly am. I am artistic, I am loving, I am a mother, I am grateful, I am my smile, I am my breathe, I am my laugh, I am my soul. I need not collect any of those things in the outside world…they already live inside of me. I am learning to be attached to nothing: my clutter, my paper piles, my clothes. Those items are not who I am, they are not my DNA! I will become detached from those items, I can live a life free of all it! My anxiety will lesson as I learn to separate my stuff from my heart. I am so much more than a room filled with plastic, fabric and paper!!! I am a soul who desires to become the best version of myself and I must continue my journey to make sure that I do.